With a sense of failure and a fair degree of crankiness, I announce my withdrawal from academia. I attended the Colloquium - which went quite well but for some offensive, un-called for and agressive comments from a Deakin Senior Lecturer. These were about my creative work. He had an agenda to push and he pushed beyond my limits.
I walked out with a shredded belief in the process, no happy confidence in what I was doing and growing anger that a single person had been allowed to dominate the process.
Oh well, back to my 'third world cliches' - spinning, dyeing and knitting. I think this gives you some idea of the tenor of his criticism.
No, I don't need that. Yes, I know it will be okay. When one door closes another opens. Open portal, open!
But it doesn't make me happy.
I'm in a cleaning frenzy - that doesn't make me happy either, but it does make me feel useful.